IM SO HAPPY :)

looking back at the start of summer until very recently i was stressing out for nothing.. i knew there was somethong missing but i was so caught up.. i have new goals now which is to lose weight in the best way possible and to please god the best i ever have and to wow everyone with my great attitude .... to let the devil know its over you can let go of me now. my goals are this

• wow family with great attitude
• stay so clean
• be caring and cook dinner wash dishes and clean house
• stop complaining
• no bad talking about nayone
• please god the best i can
• lose weight and look great in the right way :)

HERE COMES THE NEW PLAN !

GOAL- i want to get down to at least to 105 pounds so that a total of 9 pounds :)
the time frame is going to be 2 weeeks

EATING- limiting sugars
limiting dairy
limiting carbs
tons fo veggies
lots of fruits
good fats


im not eliminating anything but just cutting down :)

RULES-
no more than 2 slices of bread or about 2 slices worth bread of injara :) (per day)
no more than 3 times a week of a glass of milk
unlimted veggies
no more than 2 fruits per day
at least 2 liters of water per day
no peanuts more than 15 2 times a week
NO wet at all
no nothing with sugar more than once a week
peanut butter ony 3 times a week


WORKOUT-
weight lifting 3 times per week
cardio 5 times per week
cardio with resistnace at least 4 time per weeek
running improvment 3 times a week




OTHER THINGS-
read bible everyday
follow comandements everyday
pray for family brothers sisters and world,thos in outhority etc..
clean brain
new mind set
***refesh mind ***
cook dinner almost every ngiht
wash dishes
clean bathroom often
clean bed room often
wash clothes often
dont be lazy :) i promise its worth it and if you do it aften it wont be as hard so stay clean
it will be great change for you and your family. emeber thir claims about you why not eliminate that nad change and WOW them so they got nothing to say but they will be forced to look into them selves. sometimes it has to start with us and god will do the rest.

broke the fast BUT SO HAPPY :)

okey so yesterday i broke the fast. i dunoo. i wanst really feeling it i didnt feel connected to it i wasnt hungry too much but i had so many craving and i was making a huge nice romantic dinner for everyone else and i felt left out and i hadnt read the bible that day so i just gave in and ate injara with meat sauce and peanut butter two that is lol :) i felt stuffed but still hungry i dont know how to explain it there was just a lump in my stomach. so yes i joined my family for the huge feast i made. it was awsome. :) the main reason i quit the fast was because i did it out of no where. for the sole purpose of challenging my self and it did i stayed 2 full days with no food and i ate at night of the second so end of the second day :)
but i learned a lot. i learned not to be quick and jump to things i learned to reaech and learn more about things :)i got down like 4 pounds and i was still 112 this morning but i ate so idk what gonan happen now. tru out the water fast i was saying omg i love food so much i cant wait to eat i dunoo how im gonna make it and i cant wait to gain like 20 pounds i jsut didnt care now that i am ssatified with the sweets and fats and meats lol i wnat to lose weight. the biggest thing that i learned is that WHAT EVER I DO NOTHING CAN BEAT REAL TRUE HEALTHY EATING AND BODY. AND THAT I WILL ALWAYS GO BACK TO WANTING TO BE HEALTHY CAUSE ITS THE RIGHT THING AND THAT DEEP INSIDE I NEVER REALLY WANT TO LET MY SELF GO FULLY NAD GAIN WEIGHT AND BE UNHEALTHY :) I REALLY WANT TO BE HEALTHY BUT THIS TIME ITS SERIOUES ITS REAL AND ITS NOT A QUICK FIX AND I CAN ALREADY SEE MYSUCESS AND IT FEELS GREAT ! :)))))))))))))))))))
SO TOMORROW IM GOING TO START A HEALTHY EATING AND WORKING OUT PLAN TO GET TO THE WEIGHT I WANT TO I DONT CARE ABOUT THE SCALE OR WHAT EVER I JSUT WANT TO BE HEALTHY FIT AND SEXY LOL :) !
OH BY THE WAY I MADE AN AVOCADO MASK FOR MY HAIR AND IT WAS AWSOME :) KINDA FELT DRYING BUT WAS GOOD AFTERWARDS :)
I PUT ONE EGG 1 AVOCADO LOTS OF OIL AND ALOE GEL IN IT :)
I ALSO HAD AN AVOCADO MILK SHAKE AHH IT WAS SO CREAMY AND GOOD AND I ALSO HAD THAT YESTERDAY NIGHT !! SO IM EXCITED TO MAKE MY PLAN YAY :)

DAY 2 of water fasting

i barely had any sleep last night and got up at 5.06 am and didnt know what to do i watched t.v till about 6.00 am and then i went to mom room to get some sleep i fell asleep rahter quickly but woke up at 8.45 and i wasnt happy about that. i wanted to sleep longer so that i could avoid hunger and to make the day shorter. hopefully i iwll get some sleep in a bit. im not hungry right now but i could use a little food but the cravings are still here but not that big. i really want to make it to day 5 for more challnege accomplishment and detoxification :) along with the weight loss. wish me luck and i will post back later to report the rest of the day .......

okey so now its 5.15 pm and i am bored out of my mind i slept the whole day basically i juse woke up at 4.15 and i took a nap at around 1.00 pm . i am so bored. i feel out of it. havent done anything spiritual till now. i have low energy. im so excited cause later i will cook a huge tastey meal for the family :) dad is buying good red meat so that will make things really tastey :) so heres my plan


zesty salsa
hearty chicken delight
shaghetti with creamy meat sauce
apple pie ?
injara
sexy Flounder :)

DAY 1 of water fast

DAY 1-
Felt pretty good wasn’t hungry for most of the time but I had a few hunger pains but not too intense. I drank the Epsom salt which I put 2 teaspoons and a half in 1 quart of tap water. But I got purified water so now I’m good. It really flushed me out wasn’t painful at all. I got a lot of rest ( nap) so I’m doing good. But I did get really upset for some reason for about 30 minutes. I watched half of the passion of Christ. It was sad and kind of boring cause I didn’t understand it but I read the bible. Listened to church music. It was a great day but honestly i am so scared. I was really nice to my family. Except I messed up on with my mom cause I got mad for no reason but it was really minor. I’m not sure how long I can take this but deep inside I do know god is on my side and that I can do this. oh and the late night craving were so intense and plus i was watching unwrapped. :) Wish me luck.

WHEN YOU ARE FEELING DOWN READ THIS :)

This to be read when you are having trouble during this 10 day journey.

1. yes you can do this because god is on your side. he's there with you and you know that. look the results not the problem. jesus fasted for 40 days and nights with no food and water and the bible tells us yes we can be liek him. he will help us we only need faith.
2. dont keep saying i cant do this because you can. no pain no trouble can stop you from this fast. resist the devils tempations.
3. if you feel hungry dont be dumb and think about food or watch the food network. keep your mind on god and pray.
4. if your hugry dont think about food jsut chug that water and keep your self happy and motivated.
5. you are smart and so strong. stronger than you give your slef credit for.
6. you dont have to prove to anyone that you can do this. god knows you plans and intentions ad he is very happy and is willing to help you.
7. remeber this is a test you can pass. with him on your side everything else is lost :)

good luck betty and stay strong. keep motiviations high and look to the future. make sure you are really reding the bible and praying. dont talk to much with family and be really nice. not only is this a time to fast but a time to be quiet. so get enough water and rest and stay away from people as much as you can.

I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT I KNOW YOU CAN !!

new start

same day making another blog haha
ok so this morning i woke up at 10 and about 30 minuts later i did an epsom salt cold water flush and it cleaned me out :) and it worked in about 40 minutes. im doing this to recommit my self to christ and his father. i am hoping this brings healing and a lot of wisdom and knowledge experiance and happiness. i really dont care about the weight loss i just want to do this challenge that is good for me spiritually and physically.so water fasting for 5 days started today so im not hungry at all and so lets see how that goes. so heres my plan. its a 10 day plan . the first 5 days being a water fast and days 6 and 7 being a juice fast to help my body adjust and then days 8,9,&10 being the 3 days of real food but in small portions. so to break it down heres what it looks like.

day 1-epsom slat water flush
water fast &prayer

day 2-water fasting & prayer

day 3-water fasting & prayer

day 4-water fasting & prayer

day 5- water fasting &prayer

day 6- jucie fasting day 1
end of water fast & prayer

day 7-juice fasting and prayer

day 8- raw food & prayer

day 9- raw food & prayer

day 10- raw food & prayer

hopefully i will make it through all 10 days really well with no mistakes.

A NEW MIND SET :) !!

Came back from ocean city yesterday which was july 26 th sunday afternoon. wow ocean city was amazing. we had so so muhc fun staying up late blayish bullshit. hahah that game casued a lot of laughs and it was so awsome. we stayed on the board walks late at night checken ppl out lol and we saw a differnt kind of living there. everything was different. it was really chill and i liked it a lot. i went to the beach a lot on the first 3 days and fourthday was the coming back day ! we swam in the pool a lot and i for the first time felt so confident and that felt great. i dont know what happned but my whole mind set has changed. i guess i was forced to stop trying to lose weight just to look good at the beach becasue i was running out of time and i wasnt satifyed with my body when that big day came of going so i just had to make the best of it. and i have learned that what ever i do as far as weightloss goes has to be approched in a healthy manner or else it doesnt produce good results. maybe a week of being happy but everything else is thrown out the window. i found my slef doing horrible things for my body for the sake of weightloss and i wasnt very big to start with but thinking about it .. its so funny because i wanted to lose weight to be healthy and feel good about my self but then would do bad things to get there like cutting my caloric intake so low which wasnt good and too much excercise and just shutting everything else to lose the weight and that wasnt right. so now im in a win win situation. i have so much confidence ! i have learned so much this summer and its half way gone now but its ok. :) but yes things have changed and im happy and ocean city was so much fun adn i really cant wait till next year. to see how the chool year goes to see how my journey with god goes to see who i meet what crosses my way its just very exciting and also to see what i can do with my body spiritualy,mentaly physically etc.. its sad that it took me failure to realize what is really right not to realize but to actually start doing and feeling what was right. next year i will be at my healthyest state ever i kow i have said that in the past but its differnt now i have the tools to get me there . so watch out next year i will be toned, fit, and so happy with my slef and maybe even have a six pack ? haha

life is good its so weird cuz yesterday i was balling my eyes out for no reason maybe it because a guy made me feel guilty about not dating him and also coming back to olney from the beach lol
but its all good now :)

OCEAN CITY TOMORROW :P

omg ok so im jsut updating. haha these days i make liek 3 posts hah arent i awsome haha j.k
but tomorrow is OCEAN CITY DAY ! yay im so excited to go to the beach as of rihgt now i am between 113-114 pounds. probably 114 :)
im so happy tho cause i am relaly learning to accpet my bodythe way it is :)
this is going to be the best ocean city trip ever. :)
yay see ya later
hah no one reads my blog but oh well it gets my feeling out and i love it
hopefully i will get some followers
lol

BINGED!

oh my god i binged so much i had liek 5 slices of bread with peanut butter and omg im so mad now im freaking out i think im goign to gain all teh weight i lost. im kins on the "i give up " bus now. i go to the beach on thursday and thats exactly 1 day away and im so not ready. im not happy with my body but the good thing is taht i am learning to accept it and take it day by day but i jsut really hope i dont gain weight again ahh i dont want to go higger than 114 thats crossing the line. i dont know what has gotten into me i lost all the determinations its sad. i just binged and now its late so i have to sleep. i have no choice i cant workout now :((

1 day before the beach ( july 21 2009)

okey so today is tuesday the 21 st of july!!
almost half way into sumemr break!! omg its going by so fast. im kina sad ebcause i have wasted my summer till this day trying to get to my goal weight and its just been a roller coaster. im just taking it day by day instead of worrying so mucha bout the future. the truth of the matter si that i dont have a guarantee on my next breath so im gonna live life to the fullest. sometimes it does get hard because i get so caught up only thinking about what i want to look like sadly i forget a lot of things and i get very lazy about cleaning and everything. i relaly dont know when this is gonna end but im on the right track to fixing it so thats a good thing. this morning i weighed 112-113 pounds. im not dissapointed because i ahve been slacking a little bit. i dont know how much weight i can lose in the next two days befoer the which is on the 23 rd so im scared. i promised myself last year that i would look really good whn beach time comes around but that has not happned and in two days nothing is goign to change i guess i have to accept reality and stop trying to do everything the easy way out. looks arent everything so wish me luck :)

PICTURES !!

these girls are so my thinspiration ! :)

114 pounds

i am now 114 pounds and i used to weigh 120 so its been a long journey of ups and downs i know its not a lot of weight but it has been a tough journey because my weight is constantly changing and i keep finding my self in a trap. i always blow things by having that cake or what ever and i end up gaining all the weight and plus more that i lost. so it gets frustrating but im learning to accept my body the way it is. i know it doesnt look horrible. i know i need to be easier on my self and true beuty is not on the out side. i say taht to my self but lately it really has been sinking in so thats good. today i went to the pool and i kinda felt confertable in my own skin but i sknow i still have a lot more work to do on improving my self esteem. its weird because sometimes its so high and then it shoots down. well we will see how things go. p.S i will be goign to the beach (ocean city) on thursday and right now is 1.43am on a pretty chill july summer and today is monday night so i have 2 more days before the beach. :)

THE START

hey!
so this will be my blog to keep record of my eating habbits . i really am into fitness and health and i like trying out new things so this is a perfect place for me to keep up with everything. i do like being organized so this will really help and maybe i cna get a couple of followers and we can all inspire each other to be healthy. i want to be really fit by the end of sumer. i belive in a healthy approach to anything in this case weightloss. quick fix's dont work as i have learned the heard way. welll lets enjoy life and stay healthy in all aspects of our lives. :)