POsT FaSt

hey !
okey lets talk about the fast. i think it went well but not liek i had initiallly planned because i wasnt supposed to sleep. i was beyond tired half the time fighting the urge to sleep .
dont know why i was so tired the only thing i can guess is because i had no food or water an di ddint know water cause make such a difference vs. without food and water.
i read a lot. i was actually organized as always so i planned what i was going to read. i read from a the bible things i would have never even thought about like duturomony or 2 chronicles.
so im happy im reading at a new level and im not so terified of the old testament. they names can get confusing but if i just relaz and foucus and try not to think much of it i'll be fine.
i peed the morning i started and also mid day and i didnt pee after that until i was actually done at 7.00 am. :)
it was weird it was sleeping ,waking up, boredem, reading, and jsut the whole cycle. but i forced my self to add the times i was awake and reading most of the time and it was 14 hours so it pretty good. its funny the first time i dozed off it wasnt controlable or it was kinda ?
but anyways i gave into to the pressure to sleep because i was so over whelmed. so i did sleep and few hours here and there. i said the prayer thing dad gave me. but i grew tired of it and i honestly thought if something was ment to happen it would have happned and so i also prayed with my oown prayer for angles. i guess i didnt do it long enough, im not worthy , or its not my time. so this is an update asto how my fast went.
after my fasti was not going to eat but i was mentally tired so i was liek wat ever let me eat i cant keep this up any longer anywyas and dont want to be all weird at the doctors so i ate willingly i wasnt guilty or anything afterwards so yea i ate injara with jalepeno, tomatoe, onion, black pepp
er, awaze (tiny) , 2 limes :) also a peanut butter sandwich.
i understand i was hungry but now i just ate a little bit of inajara with wet.
and the wet wasnt oily at all it was rather dry so yea im trying to keep up the weightloss because i was 110 or 109 when i got out of the fast before anything so i know im going to gain. what ever im just trying to lead a heal;thy life style enjoying food but in a good modarate way .
in my mind im liek your going to fail again liek those 100 ither times and my response is.
MY LIFES TO SHORT WHAT EVER HAPPNBES HAPPNES BUT I WILL NOT ALLOW MY SELF TO LEAD AN UNHEALTHY LIFE STYLE BECUSE I HAVE FAILED IN THE PAST. YOU LEARN AND YOU MOVE ON AND I WILL FIND WHAT WORKS FOR ME :)