K, Todays day 2 of phase one. Im going to do an all fruit detox tomorrow. Strictly fruit and lots of water. i feellike th emore cleaner i get the mor ebtter i feel and the cravings and crazy stuff just settle down thats why i have to be so careful about even on single meal because it makes a huge difference and i Relapse so badly so were not going there again and im not even going to try and convince myself that it will be different this time around. Thats what we all say and when has that ever been true ? lol.
I see the sun again :) , After that huge mistake that lasted like a week im finally back on track. My dan, life regenerator attitude is totally helping me and making me feel like im on top of the world. IM also relying more on the lord and seeking him more so thats always good. I feel closer to him again to which is most important. I realized that all this time i have been trying to get fit but the lord wasnt really in it it was for me and to make ME feel good. Now i want to glorify him with all that i do. afterall he put me here im nothing compared to him so living for him in every way is the least i can do.
Ocean city, my biggest motivation by far. i have this image of myself laying in bdd in the hotel room after a long sunny day at am smiling while i stare at the cealing saying I MADE IT!I promised myself that i would change my eating habits and be fit once and for all. :) i reallly want this to be my last attempt. I want to do it the right way not just for some ocasion i want this to last. I know its my passion to be fit. i LOVE it and i cant get enough of it but i havent put all the pieces right. WEll you try hard and you belive and you see. amen ?
well when you hvae feelings of hurt you just got to let em out. I was on day 9 and i was doing great till i decided to have one meal of inara that i hadnt had and i babyed my self into it. Now im paying the price. You know as much as i want to deny it or make excuses time is still going. I did learn something atleast and im willing to celebrate my victories. really have learned to appreciate where i am. No matter how bad it seems or how much space there is for improvement. Truth is there is no real destination. You can set goals and reach them but the learning doesnt stop and you being human will fall sometimes. Great thing is that you can prevent falls. But you know i just want to be greatful for what i have and for where i am. How far i have come. I will be greatful that i still have time and that i didnt go through this later on. i hae exactly a month and i can do it ! Watch ill prove it to you. You will see what betty is really made of. Its always up and down so time to get back up. Lets get MOVIN! :) lol betteye you just make me laugh sometimes.