♥♥ I HAVE COME SOO FAR ( WOW. im proud of you betty) ♥

I have never been raw for more than 2 days or so so i want to really get down to it and stop procastinating because its one of my amazing goals i want to accomplish. This would just kick start my life basically. its not about being raw for life. I know that this is a great thing and probably the best thing i can do. my emotional eating and binging and constand crash dieting have caused me to ruin my body and they have discouraged me and im tired of this rollercoeaster ride. i want a healthy mind body and soul and i know the raw food will provide relife. i need to do this for me . I need to prove to myself that its okey to suffer i have come sooo far so far pushing my sle to run and diet and everything. i dont have the best will power but wow i just felt this. for the first time in my life i feel PROUD. looking back on where i used to be and how far i have come its been one hell of an expiriance. all the running pains when i didnt htink i couldnt do it i proved myself wrong. i want to keep doing that. i want to reach higer. this raw foood isnt for weightloss only it to make me change my whole life around and accomplish somehting great.i cant belive im crying now but im so happy. no one knows all my pain. as long as i live i want to keep getting better. I Will become the healthyest person i know. i will rise above all odds. i have god on my side . i will runn a marathon. i will have a toned defined body. i will be up there with my god. I WILL! no doubt. i pray he give me the courage and the wisdom he started. This is an amazing thing called life. allll the pain i go trhough is to get me to a good place and when im 90 i promise you i will smile on my kneees because i can say YES I DID IT! did what ? I DID LIFE :) This dieting thing shpwed me how weak i am and revelaed the world to me. wow thins weapon called food changed my life around. what can i say im speechless
this girl who didnt have dreams is now on top of the world.