Rebellion

Rebellion- i have rebelled ebcause i went 4 days with only raw foods and i was so tempted the last day and i was stressing out with school it was the last week or days before it and i said this. "this aint gonna go much longer, its going to stop someday, im stressed so much. i will start another day"
This was not a good way to attack my problem. the interseting thing was after i ate what i wanted which was injara and i had it with some meat oh lord my spinal cord attacked me literally attacked me and i became ill of those couple of bites. It didnt even feel good doing it . then the rebellion started withi can eat what ever i want this is the last week to be stressed so i can eat what ever i want and i did. I dont feel as connected anymore. I feel like a failure and i sthink about going raw or fasting but i have let myself go and its not right. I refuse to continue thisw ay. I will bounce back. Starting right now.