♥THE BEST ME I CAN BE ♥

wow i was so pissed and mad about not talking to you i made it a huge deal and i was hurt and that the truth. all i wnated to be was with you and i canted to see you care about me. i feel like you have changed so much and now it makes me want you more. now i rarely doubt that i want you. most of tehe times i mean im just trying to get away from being self conscioues but i am working on it but i guess everyone feels like that at times. im sure you have your hard times but i feel like you are so much more confident than me and that makes me feel down. i like that you are confident and it even enspires me. you change me and i think i need you. i dont want to get hurt and i have forgiven you but its just too much. i dont want to deal with this now. somehow i need to stop having what we have and i need to start viweing you as a friend which seems impossible. the lord is my sheild and guide and i iwll foucus on him in times like this and i will gove my self fully to him so he can take control of everything. it always works out better that way. at the same time i cant help but be human. you turn me on so much and i have never wanted somone as much as you. its so deep rite now and i think im falling in love with you. i hate this confusion cuz its never clear. if i was to stop all this its as if im taking a risk of what could be. hmm wow this is hard