Raw sunday

Todays sunday and im all raw today and all day next week!:)
brake was nice i need to rest and it seemed so long and that good.
Im not too excited to go back but i guess thats normal and im nervoues on how
i will do in ap. MY problem is thinking something is not for me because im scared and terified inside on how i will be raw. its not a long process i think if i can be raw for a week. then a week and a half then 2 weeks then a month then 2 months. if i go long enough my body will like it and heal it self instead of the little mini 3 days raw.I really need to belive in myself and just get it done with no nuts!
Tips:
Dont let your self get hungry
be creative
have variety of foods
look up recepies
(make it fun)

PAPA- PAPARATZII♥

A little more to go !!

Okey so my bod looks very very good. just a tiny bit of back fat and a little off my stomach.
i want to achive that by the end of the week coming up. Today being saturday i am just juice/smoothie feasting. Tomorrow i might include some solid raw foods. But all week i am going to be raw. But before that i need the right foods. I am working out today and tomorrow to get a head start in the week. then i will do ab rocket every other day! I have to do my english essay half today half tomorrow. i think it will b e pretty easy. she said ethos logos pathos and the trypes of writing. extended defenition..compare and contrast casue and effect. easy.
i will do math h.w if any today also. I want yilma to come :) I must say i have to forget yesterday we all have our carlesss days. thankfully i still look good. wow all this time i have been making this weight loss and raw think hard. a little work causes bunddles of JOY
I need:

1. Bananas
2. Kale ♥
3. Spinach
4. Bell peppers

end of fast. :)

lets face it i cant ride out temptaions as well as some people can :(
Im learning and i wont get anything get in my way. Im leaving things behind. im notdwelling on negativity.
i broke my fast midnight of the secod day and im proud. i indured some long huger pains. then suddenly late at night i got up and ate fir fir and peanut buuter sandwich banana nuts. not the best way to end a fast but i ate too much. :( and i woke up and i had an apple. then after a while i had a green smoothie then later on i ate a huge lunch. not too bad but i wanted to be raw :)by the way i saw a really cool thing today about streching. no joke i thnk i have it in me. nad my stomach looks better than ever. its interesting i was so craving things right now after i drank water and watched a couple of pics im no longer craving anything wow.. what wonders!!
so the water fast im happy about even doing it i know i said it was riligoues but it wasnt 3 days and i cant go back maybe next time.people fall and those cravings were intese i couldnt think about anything else. so im proud of my self ! :)

Thinking it through ! (day 1 water fast)

i know i can accomplish a challnge despite what my mind tells me
i know that its a moment thing and i have expirianced temptations
one too many times before. I belive im way stronger now and i need
to accomplsih what i set out to do expecially this 3 day water fast because
its been long over due. i know once its over i will feel so PROUD!
i dont want to eat bad when i come off it. Im praying that god
help me breake my bad eating habits. I dont need anything specific
in general but i do need to eat way better and permanently or most
of the time because im not perfect and wont get my self into trouble
by saying things i know can probably never be true.
I have learned patience proves trenth and gives motivation
for any challenge that follow. Once i start something i know
i have had plenty of time to think about it but once i start
i need to develop better ways of riding out temptaions. This fast
is my first fast i have been serioues about i can not fail and will not fail
because this is it. if i give into temptation then iwill even be sad and mad
the person that understand me the most, myself i will be mad.

♥% DAY 1 OF WATER FAST%♥ (109 lbs)

Today i woke up around 10.30. i had an aching pain on my shoulders. i was very cold and 109 LBS! lowest i have ever been. I feel awsome. not really hungry or craving anything in particular. If i keep feeling this way i can do it longer. They say when your not hungry anymore then you have switched to Ketosis but i was thinking it might actually be that because i didnt eat anything yesteraday. Only the drained kale juice & smoothie i had. Prior to that i was raw from monday. I was also high to 100% raw hrougout the week so detoxing already started but now it on full gear ! im happy today i am a little weak but that its no headaches no hunger rite now. just chill. INTERESTNG THING : i went to chinas house thankfully nothing bad happned. ii told god to make it good and he did more than that. i taled fod so long about my favorite tope the how did we get here thorey. it went very well. He was interested & told me we needed to meet up one day to finish. he told me i grew so much and got skinner. :) lol im happy. Today was okey i was tempted at chinas like omg that looks so good but it was controlled it wasnt i wanna eat it sooooo bad it was just like im hungry that looks good. i feel like my digestive system is kinda closing but i still have cravings like nuts. nuts are the bif thing today with banana fir fir and lasana, macaroni .. those are the main foods. im suprised i wasnt going crazy. pretty chill. IM excellent i must say. i measered my blood pressure it was 61 for heart rate and 104/62 .. thats pretty low. my heart rate has dropped a lot. also i cant stop thinking about food. natural i guess. but its interesting how we dont apriciate what we got and freak out when something is changed. Im not sure if its natural what i feel or gods extra help. i did prepare ahead of time and i dindte eat anything solid yesterday nor comsume too much sugar except the one banana . right now im confused about the future, I know i really need to complete this. never want to fail at this but what i should eat in the fute to be 100 % rawor not its kinda confuseing. I dont know how i will find a balance of cooked and raw. idk if i need to try the 30 days raw challenge. i really have no clue what the future holds. Ill pray and i shall find out :) My gods not a confuseing god! today i didnt read the bible till later at night which i wont beat my self up over. i aldo meditated late at night. thats it for today. btw i drank a total of 8 bottles of water.See ya tomorrow.

♥Amazing day! Last day of pre fast!(111 LB)

♥Thinspo.Sexy,Toned,Proportioned,Abs.♥

Yay today was the last day of pre fast. Accomplished very well. i read tons of bible ! whch helped me stay focus. I read romans Btw. :P. i drank so much water and cleased with lime water.

when i woke up i ws so much skinnyer then i felt so good i tried on my bikini and oh my i looked bangin no joke. I feel alive and alert and light. I only had kale today juiced,smothie. I had one banana inside the whole jug of kale goddness so thats okey. I tried to get my body used to low amounts of sugar and the kale should help the healing and clensing process. Yay another great thing about today was that i Beat my raw record! Only very very very tiny bit of work needed and i would look perfect. if i had abs and my back was totally toned i would be bangin. I found im alos propotionate tough if i gain its my tummy and back first. Everything looks good. BUm..boobies..stomach! Hey i cant complain its only been 3 days ahh :) Now im 100% sure ill be bangin For OC next year which is a weight off my shoulder. I must say with no exxagiration , i ahve never felt this happy about my body ever!

Now i got a little bit of cleanisng and weight to drop but its very small. After ill maintain my sexiness lol then i will work on toning up while raw DUH!

Heres what i want to accomplish:]

• Brake my bad eating habits/Addiction
• expand my food knowledge
• become exteremly spiritual ie bible, yoga :]
• Be confident with my body & be at perfect weight & maintain it
• Do well in school
• Be obedient to fahter(heavens) lol more than ever
• Be more thankful and humble.
• Be happy with life and maintain good mood.

day 2 of Fast

Today was a good day. trying to enjoy the food vefore its all gone.
thats what has been keeping me going. I have been tempted quite a lot but i keep motivating my self and i think of jesus which makes me forget it all. I drank lots of water today. apply about that. i spent more time with god and im very happy about that. :)
day 3 here i come.

Day 1 fast

Today was great. Had temptation but it was the first day lol so i wasnt about to quit.
i did watch the church channel and read the bible. but i wanted to spend more time with god.
if i dont fully involve him in this i will not overcome this. OVerall Good job because every step counts.♥♥

RUNNING BACK TO JESUS!

You know all the dieting, trying to be raw, this and that doesnt help what i need is god in every part of my life. I need to include him in everyhting i do. he needs to be a part of it. Raw foods isnt something he doesnt know. Its like i separate him from some thing i do which is like everything now.well i know its just a low time it will be up soon glad to know that i have jesus who died on the cross for me for moments like this. :) so here the plan.. i must say i feel very nervoues because i dont want to fail !

100 % raw foods monday,tuesday and wednesday
Water fasting - Wednesday, thursday, friday
Raw foods- Saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday

♥ thats 10 day total of fasting which has pre water fast and post water fast which is so important because all of it will be usless. I want this for god mainly and the health too :)

The day my life cam down :(

This year i must say is very intresting. I find my self trying new things and failing and getting up and my eyes have been opned. today all of that has been reaffirmed because i u know what and its been liek 4 months and i broke it. instead of asking the lord for answer even though i know its wrong i just try to convince myself maybe its right. it leads me to watch things i dont want and htink about hings i dont want and thats indianiable . i even told my self i was afraid of his answer because it may be right and i wanted to do it :( what a shame. WE humans are BAD! I dont need it and i feel free without it. Im not as down as other days for some odd reason. I truely feel like it happned for a reason. maybe its because i plan to make up for it. it sure proved i need god more in my life. It proved that he was far away from me because of my choices and i know this life i live is for him and all hapiness is found through him and i feel like i broke all of it. i dont even want to go on anymore but i know i will keep on trying. I have failed so much its like im doomed to fail. Im fating no matter what this week so that i get back on a happy trial and serve him like i shoud wtih my body and mind!

DETOXING SHIT!

to detox my body and to get rid of cravings i need to detox
i know it may not be too pleasent but im researching today
so that starting tomorrow i can eat 100 % raw half day wednesday
then im water fasting for 3 days. Im trying to make it religioues. I know that i keep saying oh maybe this raw thing isnt for me i will maybe do it later. Truth is i know that i can not even bear to live with admiting that raw food aint for me. I would be so depressed. I know i can do it and im not giving up with out a fight. IM detoxing and thats it !

maybe i need to include god in this for it to work. lmao no wonder everything fails without him. The thing is i know that if i give in i wont like it later on and i know cravings are tests and i can overcome them but i guess im scared to deal with emotions rising to the surface. Im not getting super excited and all because i know once i get into it its gonna be hard and a real test of my faith. you know what i will god this is for him. for me to detox shit and he will be a part of it becaus he promised. ill reasearch on it tonight and let in in on it. till then take care and smile. life is hella short.♥♥♥

Fell again but that okey cause im back on track again baby!

failing doesnt feel to good.
It started with the hot dog at the movies
and that led to unhealthy eating when i got home and
all of the next day which is today. I feel tired im out of it and
unhappy. One more reason to say raw.

School Sucess

School sucess takes great timing and consitencey.
Doing Things on time and even ahead to that you can make sure you get a complete understanding. School is not turture it is an exciting place to learn new things. It might get boring at times and the whole getting up, school,h.w, sleep ..rutien might get old after a while but rember this is what everyone has to go through. to be sucessful at life you need to do well in school. Blowing off homework and not paying attention in class will soon chatch up with you and you will be sitting there wondering why you did not get into a good collage or any collage at all. you have 3 more quarters and senior year to impress your collages. This will be great in the end for your parents and you. You want to be known as the smart girl now the dub girl. you can do it yu are no different from everyon else. you are jsut as capable of getting good grades. Never forget this and do waht ever you have to do to remind your self that time flies and you have to take things seriously. I have to say that you have done amazing this year. your grades were great compared to last year and your gpa has imrpved and its all because of the work you put in and it does pay off. you see if it wasnt for the late night reading you would have not been here. Next quarter your goal is to get no C's and more A's than b's. Retake what ever you need to.
If you arent getting enough sleep and eat junk 24/7 school will be hell. You will have a new psassion to learn and do homework if you get enoguh sleep drink lots of water and eat better and try to be positive :) I love you always !

HOTSTUFF!

Raw Day 2/7

Day 2 baby! I Have to make it to day 7 no option i promise i will suffer it through.
I just have to remeber when things arise if i dont ride it out with a Smile on my face
then i will stay where i am forever. ITs only 7 days. People water fast for weeks and juice feast for months and you cant go raw for a week ?

Raw Day 1/7

It was a great day!
I accidently ate a chinese candy, jolly rancher kind.
I ate 2 carrots and 2 apples. and an avocado shake with banans for dinner.
From now on i should make my breakfast heavier than dinner. And lunch should be the heaviest.
this week no more avocados. No nuts. Also i didnt drink that much water :(
so for the next 6 days including today i will drink a lot of water.
Plan-

• Get more sleep


• lots of water


• get in lots of green leafy vegetables


• NO avocado,oil,nuts!

Late Update. 6 More days to go ( counting today!):):):):):):)

The last month my klife has not been easy nor the same.
Oh man sitting here i get the chills thinking about it because
i have always serched for that higer level of hapiness with every aspect of
my life.I have prayed to to open and senstive to new things and i cant not
tell you how much raw food has changed my life. I ahve tried going 100 % raw and
i have failed several times but it okey because thats part of the process and i enjoy learning
from my mistakes i love having being challenged and i love accomplishing new goals and reaching
new Levels. Im naturally a very competetive person and i am blessed to know that i stive for the best i dont settle for less and i fall so many times but i get up maybe slow at times but i keep trying. I can be negative and say FML sometimes but deep inside i know thats no way to be. Life is too short and i cant let it pass by without me getting in the middle and being drenched. What im saying now is the words of my life. No other thing can rise above what i feel right now. for the first time i discovered these people with so much joy and love and the interesing thing is that they used to be over weight depressed and sluggish now they are at the top of their game and when i see that i cant walk away. there are some who can see that and say og good for them but being the person that i am i cant walk away without having a little taste. I sart being 100 % raw and by the third day when feeling rise to the surface i complain of too much homework, cravings and i say its okey you can start again when really i cant keep giving in. at times i feel week because i am unable to ride out the pain.I know most times that the hunger will go away if i deal with it in a positive way. I dont even enjoy eating cooked processed food anymore and i just eat it becuse physologically i feel entitled to eating cooked food andi can understand i mean thats what i have ate all my life and the thought of sticking to veggies and frutis for ever seems very overwhelming at times but then when i look back on the people who have changed their lives i see that they had the same issues as i but chose to stick to their plan and thats what i plan to do. i need to have better faith in myself. I know i can do it and i just see victory. I try not to define what i want to do too much i just want to try being 100 % raw which makes sense. If i dont try being raw for an extended amount of time there is no way i can build confidence and really be able to compare but i know that at least i will stick to being high raw.

In Love with kale ♥♥♥

OH my i love raw kale smoothies.
They are addicting and a drug. They make me get high no joke :P
Today is amazing i woke up at 11 and at around 1.30 i had amazing kale :)
i am sticking to the raw thing. 100 % all the way baby for at least a week to
prve its true power. You are what you eat. i want my cells to be made up of
living nutrients untouched and unprocessed.I keep telling my self oh maybe this isnt for you but i know it is and if i stick to it it will change my life forever. I want to be pure insdie and out. i also have to look into that hemp seed because i need that for protien to gain muscle but for now i will work out to loos fat be raw and :)

where am I ?

where am i ? is a great question. past 2 days i havent done any homework. i have pretty much given up. i know its the beginign of the quartor but i dont have any room i mean any room to mess up. I just cant and i know i can do it its ust a matter of having a good plan. If im happy overall then eveything falls into pieces. Things to consider are having the bath room and my room clean that help me with my mood a lot. also working out gives me a sense of accomplishment and joy and motivation. I have noticed i deal with tough things way way better now and its just great. The raw thing for 3 days went Excellent! i was out of it so i decided to forget about it. not a good idea. I feel weighed down, out of it, no homework is getting done but suprisingly i look like i lost weight from my tummy. its looking good :)
i went to the gym today so i can build my muscles again. they still look good but i lost the pump im my biceps and my abs. but i still have the strength because of running and i burned 200 alories in 19 minutes that is amazing ! it wasnt that hard . compared to running it was easy .
i have also been curning a lot this week, carless, un clean, bad eating habits ugh i just hate it. good thing i have learned to accpet my mistakes. i keep learning and each time i get stronger.

the very kool thing i noticed was that after the 3 days 100 % raw i didnt even want cooked food. mentally i knew i didnt need it i didnt even really crave it but i got caught up onn the idea of "being raw" with craving so when i didnt have a plan i just went back to horrible eating. too much nuts this and that. Second thing is that i dont have as many craving and i loveeeeee the way green smothies taste and make me feel. its like a drug. so starting tomorrow i am having mostly starained juices with smoothies if i want. Lots of water and excersie lets see where this goes :)

WOHOO! misson accomplish 3 days raw

I accomplished being 100 % raw for three day. on the night of the third day whcih was already 3 days since i started i was complelty raw. I am so proud. I wasnt even craving anything really but somehow i ended up eatin 2 peanut butter sandiwiches which i did ot enjoy it felt horrible. I ate tomatoe sauce with injara. i didnt eat too much injara thank GOD! . i had little shero at night. i saw he meat and i was so disgusted by it. i guesss my taste buds are changing! I dont crave that many things anymore. Interesting thing is that after dinner i drank my greensmoothis and oh my it was so weird i loved it. it was like a drug i needed to have. i was full but still i wanted to drink it. it gave me a peacefull feeling when i drank it♥

So next goal is to do 5 days raw i want to do 7 but i dont want to overwlelmh myself.
im happy about the changes tho.

Completly raw day 2

I am so proud. Its the end of day 2 and Sucess. WOHOO I was not tempted to eat anything really but i craved the beef when i was cooking for dad but i kinda thought it was discousting at the same time. My goal was 3 days so i guess its up to 5 now!♥ I have been working out the past 3 days strait and also i have been getting lots of greens and water in. pee is clear so im good. lol. umm i did the giam upper body and abs. I actually did well on the abs better than ever but i didnt finish it i was fed up lol.



Breakfast- none ( surgery) it was so amazing
Lunch- banana,apple
Snack- green juice
Dinner- 2 banaba, 1 oragne 3 med carrots
Snack- almsot 2 bottles. green juice post workout.

Dumping the past

Dad got me all the grocery i possible can need.
Today was an amazing day. I did my homework fast without wasting soo much time as always i also did the air climber "super 7 Pump" it was great. I noticed my attitude was good even thought it was painfull at time i never thought i would stop anything i knew i could do it and i didnt modify anything now. I Ate more babanas than i would have liked but i was so hugry at least i didnt go to cooked food.:) for the first time i feel like i can really go 100 % raw for a long time. Working out is key and not being too stressed with school as a result of procrastination really is so important. Also im happy becsue i have this day to be healthy and learn something new. Im letting go of the old and in starting new. trying to forget my past and my failures because after all everyday is new and its never ever too late to get on the right path. I really have changed now that i think about it i am so much more positive and im not scared of challenges anymore i actually like them and my life from the high i get from accomplishing things. I have been doing great in school, trying to fix my love life and what i put into my body and the whole process of that really has cnahnged my life. I will never be the same. I may ignore what i learned but deep inside my heart has been cracked open and new possiblities are flowing in. I never knew that i would wake up one day and i would be a new person. Its really evident to me now that you dont know what you are missing intil you taste somehting better. i have really changed, recently i have been trying to put god first because i found i wasnt doing that and i got cought up with school and the whole raw movement but still he loved me and forgave me actually i hadnt seen a dream from him in a while na di did the other day and i was so happy. He wants fellowship with me and wants me to seek him more so he can tell me and reveal more of himself. I dont want to make going raw a chore of something painfull i want to make very change in my life positive and i want to accompish all my goals looking at them as good things for me not just things i have to do. For what i dond get i will ask god for his light to lead me. I want to be blind being lead by god. I sing i will lift my eyes to the maker of the mountains i cant climb, i will lift my eyes to the calmer of the oceans raging wild i will lift my eyes to the healer of the hurt i hold inside. I will lift my eyes lift my eyes for you ♥

**** You know what ever i try to do if im not connected to it in the right mind set, if god isnt first, if he isnt invoved, if i dont let the pain purify me, if i dont see the poitive side of it and if i dont foucus on it, ill never reach the end! Change is good and painfull because it is what you are used to but when you start detoxing you rlife inside out not only what you put into your body but everyhting, you will shine with glory, i can see a great wave coming to sweep you off your feet liek you saw in your dream. you will enjoy wonderfull hapiness for a long time and you will never be the same and all this is possible by the hands of god ♥**** DARE TO BELIVE IT

Raw grocery list! & stuff

*Raw Grocery List*

1. Kale
2. Green Apples
3. Spinach
4. Beats
5. Carrots
6. Mangoes

Donts!:

1. No Oil
2. No nuts
3. No baked carbs
4. no soda/processed drinks
5. no sugary treats.

Daily Ritual-

• Morning bible read
• Go to bed early
• No nap when home from school
• Do homeworks early

day 1 of Completly Raw♥ 114 pounds

OCEAN CITY LOVE♥

1. I Havent ate anything till now but i did drink water.:)Day one is going well so far. I have had little craving here and there but nothing major.I have to get down to serioues buisness and keep my self motivated. I have also started working out yesterday i ran the longest i have ever ran and it was cold! Throught all the pain i pulled through. :) SO PROUD! pat on the back for me.


2. Another thing that i want to do is workout more so that i am motivated and i will feel better and feel like im accomplishing something. It will also help me see the weight come off faster. i dont want to be all weak and saggy i want to be stong and tight and toned. :) I want to improve my running so i want to run at least 3 times per week.I also plan to do the air climber twice a week or more.

Breakfast- none but water

Lunch- 1 cup of carrot juice , 2 water bottles

Snack- 1 Juicey green Apple, Banana

Dinner-3 bananas, 1-2 of kale smoothie. 2 cold water bottles

Workout- Air climber super 7 PUMP!*** ( Amazing and got me in a good mood)♥

3 Days of Completly raw.

I dont want to feel bad for my failures they are what will take me to my ultimate dream.
I dont want to say cooked for is poison because i still need more reaserch and detoxing of my mind i guess. I have ate it all my life it not goign to be easy as pie to switch to raw foods but i know its now or never. I cant keep on stuffing my face gaining weight. I also have a bad habit of putting things off and never facing them liek homework or eating i just tell my self just this time.
I know as long as i do that i wont reach my full potential. I get so sad and depressed mainly because of the decisions i make. Its funny. my blog really helps me thought on writing out my feeling and my goals. It helps me think more which i wouldnt do if i wasnt writing.
Trying to go raw for 3 days now because i tried 7 and i stopped at the end of day 2.
so today is sunday so today, monday and tuesday i will be ceompletly raw until wedneseday morning then thats when it counts as if i finished the 3 days. Baby steps are right for me. I always try to go big and all out and nothing gets accomplished.( as in i never finish the days)!

my father

my father
theres something i have been longing to say
i need you and i want you
when will you get this love i got for you
i cry each night so i can hear you voice
to feel you path is my one and only wish


when will i see you face to face
when will tell you my jokes
when will you wipe my tears away
when will we run in the garden
my best friend my love
i wish everyone knew you.

Attached to food.

food. food. food.
never thought it was a big deal until recently.
it runs my life and i dont want it to
i understand that i need it but i want to eat better.
each time i try i fail. yes i have accomplished some things.
but im far from where i want to be. I have no clue how ill
be raw for a long time to even feel the differce. I know i can
do it and im making it a big deal. Its one simple rule. Feel that
pain and win it or give in to the pain and lose it! there are other
factors that decide my ultimate sucess like where my mind is
my reason for trying to go raw. I belive that i know why i want to
and that is to feel the difference and get healthyer. It is just
way too much sometimes. Im tired of failing giving in.
Im weak to the bones .
the most stressful thing is that i want it badly
i want to have sucess and beat temptation
others do it way better than me sometimes i
might as well not try because it like i get no where.!
when will i get there ?

<3

Awsome day ♥

4 awsome things to note.

• last night i had a dream about me dad,yilma, teddy and me .it was about me yilma nad teddy flowting in the air and being in heaven for a little bit then everyhting would get normal then another wave sweeps us up and we see something else like the lambs and a picture of jesus.
• I read the bible when i woke up a lot of it too in JOB!
• I ran on an empty stomach. Ran the furthest i had run in my life.♥ im so proud i had so much pain i couldnt breath yet i did it.
• The pain i went thorugh really made me realize how much it takes to be a runner and also when i binge or eat unhealthy for no reason or when i give into temptation i will remeber the pain i went through to lose weight get healthy and try no to blow it.

In a bit i will take a shower then do my homework aferwards and make some good smoothie.:)come up with recepies for being raw. Im soo happy. i never knew running could change everything as far as motivation and also the way i look at things because when i compare the pain to other things things like homwork seem so little and that helps me get my work done it will help me eat better and be raw for a while because it will get my mood high and keep me really motivated. Especially when i see the fat melt off who would wanna go back ?

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A Running passion and Dream come true( Derartu Tulu)

I feel so blessed to have met her its funny how god puts things in my life at the right time! Never realazing why i met her now i do! I love running with a passion and i feel so happy that i was able to meat a world chanpion and get advice from her. It means the world to me! How many people get to meat their dream person and i an say i have! running is an accomplishment and a challenge i love. the feeling after i run is like no other. I love pushing myself. Running is more than a sport it is my life. I know i need to put more time into it but it resembes my life> when i think i couldnt do something i prove my self wrong. The physical aspect of running is nothing compared to what it does to my brain. To over come a challenge is the most amazing feeling. Its a sport you take credit for. I never knew what true love for a sport was. I see my self running marathons winning them and making people who doubted me proud. I want to represent my country. I want to go to the top! right now it might be hard for me to think about actually being there but i imagine running and winning. There is nothing impossible with work and dedication you can rise to the top and duh i will be high up there cuz i got my best friend my love and author there with me the finisher and starter of my life.♥

Raw for days ♥

you know maybe 3 days is the challenge i can overcome right now! Everyone is diffrent but its still so much closer to my ultimate goal. I know things willl get easyer and i just procrastinate so much and just waste time doing crap instead of doing what i dont wnat to do which actually end up making me happy at the end of the day because if i dont do my h.w or anything i get more sad.
Raw Path-
No sugars
No nuts
No oil
No cooked/processed anything
Live foods-
Any uncooked veggie, fruit!
Tons of water.
Jucing, mixed salads just plain goodness.♥

Raw opening up Ways!

I did not make it to day 7 of 100 % raw foods. it was my first day i last almost 2 full days. I expiranced craving liek no other. all veggies became unsatifying to me. so i ate all the stuff i though i nedded and missed. I slept early that night but in the morning i was so dizzy and so tired in school i was tired and i didnt feel like myself. Another issue also arose. throughout this whole process i had forgoten my faith and what i live for for raw foods. Its a good thing that i want to take care of my body and take resposibility and be alert for god but i dont spend almost anytime. I pray at night , stopped prayer in the morning, i barely read the bible like i used to , im not so giddy about my bff(god) anymore. I love this raw thing though its changing my life showing things im missing. I just need to fix my attitude about everything. i need to put more work in school and i have been slacking because of anthony and then at the end of the quartor i just became extemly lazy and fed up with being wirthdraw form the world. I tried goign raw i guess too much and it affected my school and faith. I want to balance it all. IM natuarally a very stressed person and too much anxiety i need to relax and let thing happen. I really want to eat better. I guess i got attacked to the idea of "being Raw", yes its a great acccomplishment but to me whats importnatnt is taking it slowly so that everything is a smooth transition.I need to forgive myself for letting myself go and I need to stop rebelling so much and binging after i fall off a wagon. Not good! So now im trying to go raw for 3 days !
I can do this because its short i guess i can add on more days and then try cooked food again to see its affect an what i like and dont like then go vegan for a while. I know being a vegitarian is no issue.Another interesting thing i found out about my self is that i go on these Magical challenges and im all optemistic then after i fail i binge so much and eat so bad after. I realized that my mind isnt in the right mind set. Theres nothing wrong with that i iwll grow but i need to see raw food as good food taht really is good for me and tha ti really need. I cant just give up everything when i fall of the wagon thats imature.

Today was an interesting day. I was not really tempted but i kept on craving cake, eclair, and sweet stuff like Pb&j. I stayed 100% raw today so proud! I was surprised at how much craving i had today. Thinking about it i have never ever went completely raw and i tried a high raw and that lasted 4 days. Ouch lol. So this is completely out of my zone it wasn't hard when i did the days being completely raw is so different and i feel the effects already. I'm not having any oil, breads/injara,stews or any cooked veggies. I had nuts because i was getting attacked by craving and nothing satifyed me until i ate somehting heavy.All Raw baby! I wasn't tired today Considering the fact that i slept at like 2.15. I couldn't fall asleep :( Its because i took a nap but it was only 1 1/2 hrs and it was disrupted many times also so i think the raw foods gave me energy.
I am so excited as to what these 7 days might bring. I hope to get thinner, mind clearer, less stressed and happier.


Breakfast-Small green apple,1 carrot stick,3 grape fruit slices♥
Lunch- About 3 carrot sticks with grape fruit slices and 1/3 of a small green Apple
Snack- Banana,2 bottles of water, green smoothie ( omg so good)! It was actually pretty satisfying as in yummy not just filling.
Snack- peanuts, apple, 1 carrot stick

Dinner-


Grocery list-

• Kale
• Banana
• Brocolli
• Spinach

Stuff-So little h.w :)I think i should stech evernight this week before i go to bed and i should drink way more water!

Betty's Smile

She Is so beautiful strong face and amazing toned body ♥
Just a sophisticated Cassy woman!♥

100% Raw Day 1♥

Today is the first day! feeling like i can really make it through because i feel like i have expirance and i know my weak spots better. I was so inspired by lowana and andrew 100 % raw for months and i have to be able to do 7 days. Its something i have to do period. I want to feel vibrant and expirance the things people always talk about. Right now im not thinking about being a 100% raw foodist for ever. I am expiramenting and learning as i go but these 7 days are the most important because its the start of everything. if i can do this i would love to do another 7 day then 2 weeks after that then a month! I am so excited i love having goals. It the start of a new quarter and a new eating habit. were on a Roll here.

Today- i was motivated but wow i had some craving but i handeld all of them so well.

Breakfast- green smoothie of spinach and Banana
Lunch- with yilmish & had slalsa with green smothie of carrots,spinach,banana and apple :)
Snack- 1 banana, 1 apple and 2 carrots chopped up! Yummy and filling
nap ..♥
Dinner- rest of green smoothie from morning
& a banana ,tiny apple, 1/2 grape fruit!

Stuff- I looked pretty fit this morning and i looked skinnyer. :)
Good luck with tomorrow and i know i can do it and 6 more days left.