SUCCESS IS WHAT YOU MAKE IT

success truley is what you make it because
you can have any goal you want but you
have to fail so many times to suceed
its more about learning from your
mistakes and getting Somewhere.
See if you accomplish even a very
small thing it still one step away
from your past and two steps towards
your goal. see you dont have control
over the furture nor the past.
future is not even here yet and
your past is just a memeory of you
so you are in the here and now so
as hard as it is to stay in the present
you have to make a concoiues effort to
appreciate, soak in, thank and learn
from what is happening. Planning
wont get you anywhere..its doing
that moves you in the right direction.
a goal without a plan in a mere wish
and failing to plan is planning to fail!
So, live for today make good decisions
keeping in mind that you are able
that you can do this. See half the
battle is already won when you can
see yourself succeding. IF you can
envision that then your already there
its just a matter of time before you say
next!

Success is what you make it!

Control

Im happy. I have be eating less, drinking more water...a lot ! daily tooo not just for 2 days then never. Also imnot eating that much injara when i do. And if i do i eat smaller amounts. I try not to eat the same thing day in and day out because that is not a good lifestyle..plus it can get borning..for me at least. So im pretty happy. yesterday at the movies with Anthony it was fun ;) but i did not have anything there. No pop corn no soda no etc like other days i didnt say oh i never really go to the movies and eat a hot dog or something. Im proud. and the $50 gift card i got from yilma for chirstmans from express is still not used and i want to use that to reward myself after, but i dont have a specific goal so i guess i will have to come up with one. I guess i havent because i fifnt thnk specific goals are good. So iw ill think of one and get back to you !
later :)

:)

C.O.N.S.I.S.T.E.N.C.E.Y

Today is January , 26, 2011 !
Things have been going well lately because im not on a DIET!
Its a lifestyle and i realy realy am sick of being sick and tired of being unhappy with my weight. So i have stopped all the high and lows with my weight and diet. So I have been eating smaller portions, listening to my body. if i eat more one day, its expected but baby i tell you moderation is my best friend. I no longer feel guilty about having things like starbux. Steve from bodypreformaceTV has really helped me focus on having a lifetyle and realalizing that weightloss occurs because of calories in and calories out. Certain foods dont make you fat its excess calories that add on the pounds. So by excercising a litle bit less and eating a little bit more consistently will add on unwanted weight. So im done stugling with my weight because it has been an ongoing cycle of super high motivation vs. motivation binge eating. I now understand the value of Habits. So i have been working out even when i dont feel like it because just like brushing my teeth or going to school its something that i do. Its very early but i know this is going to be a huge sucucess if kept up ! also hence the title of this post Consistency is so key because that is what shows that i have a lifestyle not some phase. I am focusing on being patient and having faith which i think is th ehardest part for me. Im always doubting if what im doing is working though i see the results in the mirror and i guess the inpatience plays into this too. But some days i eat super healthy like on monday i had all fruits all day except for a turkey sancwhich i believe which was great. my key is not focusin on WHAT i eat but HOW MUCH i eat. Its not injara, bread, etc. that makes me gain weight its eating too much of the wrong types of food. So my moto is OUTWEIGHT the bad with GOOD! If this is done it reats a calorie defecit and you lose weight, considering consistency and for a more drastic result be more consistent and have more good than bad. WEightloss or staying fit is not complicated you just have to make it a lifestyle and a lifestyle is something you have to enjoy and tolorate so saying im never going to eat this and that is not going to help you because you will feel restricted. Its not about abandonment its about Balance...LOVE YOUR BODY

Consistency, Balance , positivity :)

3 keys things keeing me happy! im looking a lot better and i feel like i can go like this forever because im not obsessing about anything just being patient, using balance and being Consistent with my workouts especially. what Pfreformance tv guy steve said really helped me. he siad " its not what you do today adn what you did yesterday that makes you look like the way you do, its the build up o decesions week after week month after month"

If they can do it i can too !

Fitness is not an evernt!

Guess wat im really happy :D
i dont want to say i found a miracle although it feels like it, it has been life changing, Lately i have been watching videos on youtube and i have witnessed amazing peaople and their lifestyle. I see how dedicated and happy they are and it makes me want to achoeve great things in life. Watching OOTD ( outfit of the days) has made me happier because i feel trendy and feminine. I like taking care of myself and looking great. I want to make the most of what i have. I dont have to be a millionare or buy expensive bags to feel like im worth something. painting my nails red just does something to me lol . Thats my life. As far as diet and excercise i have been working out consistently about every toher day when im sore or days in a row. yesterday i went to the gym and it was nice lifting and running. I plan to go today too. oh ya and i drove today yay ! :) and got the best salad at whole foods. mmm. i have been drinking lots of water for the last several days and i feel better. i believe i weighed 115 this morning. But its not all about the number on the scale. I am in a really happy place right now. I have been searching for a way to get fit and be happy for a long time and i got into a habit of self pity, binging and etc. I am going to comeout of this and prove to everyone that i can be done.
Heere are just a couple of things that have been really life chaning.

1- being positive. Waking up and telling my self i am going to have a great day. dressing up looking and feeling great. with clothes accsories etc.
2- drinking lots of water, my handy dandy yellow bottole is the bom.
3- Working out consitently no matter what i looklike , feel etc.. just making it a habit and a lifestyle
4- Not obsessing about food. ( there will be times i will have starbux, times when i eat more thatn others, but what matters is moderation. if i have a high caloric food then i will balance it with something healthier. Not going over board on foods that i like. Many times i feel like i cant have somthing so when i do have it its way to much)
5- listening to my body- If im hungry i will eat, if i feel full i will stop no matter how much is left.
7-Weightloss and fitness is NOT an EVENT
8- Having faith that what i am doing is working and will pay off!
9- Staying motivated. ( if that means watching vidoes , reading material that is uplifitng and motivating be it. )
10- Controlling emotional eating- not feeding emotions and finding that i am powerful and in control, making those little changes that add up to big ones.


these 10 things are amazing and work fantastically. So i dont want to stress my self, im going to be positive, have faith and enjoy getting fit because its a lifestyle. going on some ristricted diet is not going to last forever. it creates ristirction and thats the last thing i need in my life! :)
Smileee because sunny days are ahead sweetheart

Beautiful

I WANT A lIFESTYLE

:) OOTD's definetly make me ,motivated because if you are healthy you feel sexy in anything. have more energy and just behappy more. Dressing up, make up, nails make me happy. especially LV bags.!! So...i was thinking that logging what i eat was going to get to obessesive and bad for my life style change but it wil help me keep my eye on my goal...OR i cold find something else to do daily like watching a motivating video on fashion and health :) by the way i ADMIRE a new person. her youtube channel name is CharmenedElegance :) i love her lifestyle. She s consistent and a happy person.

plan for rest of January 2011

Consistency month :)

Diet- For the rest of january eat smaller,
whole foods, up the protien intake and drink lots of water!
example meals - egg whites stuffed with brown rice and tomatoe
bean sauce ( amazing), tuna in water, vaiety of fruits, vegetables,
soups, etcc


Workout
* 2 days of abs
* 4 days zuzana workout
* 1 day complete rest.

L.O.V.E Darla Benfield

INSIDE OUT! ( FINALLY FOUND SOLUTION)

Today i watched a video on youtube and it was transforming.
(josielenore) is her username. She talked about how it is imporant to fix the core underlying issue of EMOTIONAL EATING. I have known and now really aware that i suffer from emotional eating. I have suffered for a long time with emotional eating and it is a real problem. today i feel like a have a SOLUTION.

For many years , i have ate to soothe my self and have been havier than my actual state now which is better. I look better than i did last year for example. Its hard to pin point exactly what has helped me but i did bike a lot during the summer and did zuzana workout. I can say it has been consistent but "something is better than nothing." So gettin back to the point i have been biniging cycle for a long time. I remeber drivers-ed over a year ago and me goin to a store to buy tons of junk/treats and eating so much of it at once. i even said " today im going to eat my heart out"! So i was constantly up and down. Every year i always prepare for Ocean City. Wanting to make it my best summer yet. But year after year i have been yo-yo dieting. In a self defeating cycle.


So lately i have been making better changes. I did get on a diet and lose weight, looked better than i ever did, which was great. and the way i measre that is through my back because i tend to carry most of my weight there! anyways since school started i stil used to bike even when it wa cold but now its too cold so i have stopped completely. I have done zuzana workouts a lot at some points stop start pattern. But thats a recap of this year. I am still not where i want to be . there is still binging but not crazy like before but i still eat when i dont need to. I also over eat , cant stick to a life style..and all that good stuff.


So on to the present. Today i watched a video that changed my life. I have yo-yo dieted for a long time and i feel like for the first time ever this is a real solution to my problem. if i stopped eatin gemotionally and stopped being attached to food for comfort which i do a lot and most of it automatic which makes it hard to notice. again since it happens so fast i usually over eat and eat the wrong things etc... and have very low control of my mind to food connection. Most of my day to day eating does not involve extreme binges but small ones are frequent. So i have found a way to cope with my issues.


First ,

1. Be aware of my surrounding each time before i eat
2. ask myself if i am physically or psychologically hungry
3. IF the answer is psychological ask myself whati am trying to soothe
4. find an activity that will streer me in a positive way that does not involve food

By repating these steps i believe it will giv eme more control and power over my eating. I hope to finally stop yo-yo dieting and just eat and not be attached to food in a bad way. yes food connects us all its important enough to affect our survival but should not be a coping mechanism.

This sounds very simple and i agree that health coping mechanism should be taugh in school unlike math which we hardly ever use. So today was a great day.... Aside from the emotional eating starting about 4 days ago i have been working our regardles of my eating habits. Some longer some shorter but the point is to get stornger and get into the habit. Plus its very importnat for an overal healthy well being. Inside and out. I have also found that working out allows me to eat better because i understand first hand what it takes to workout so its a great motivator for my diet. Lastly working out consitently wil sed extra fat , promote me to eat better, boost energy, mood and keep muslce tone strength and definition. ( i have recently realized that its the control i have over my life that brings happiness not really my external appeareance. hte extrenal appreance hits home once in a while when i watch a video or something that shows beautiful girls and that makes me sad and reminds me of the trap i am in. And i can say no longer because im going to keep trying.

So putting it al together i am going to follow my better coping step with my emotional eating, workout consistenly even if a minute lol, maintian a postive outlook and keep pushing. Because i need to appreciate the gift i have been given which is an opporutnity to constantly transform myself and its not cheap!

"There is no magic solution t life but when you get bits of insiration and knowldege, use it to step forward passing limits you never though possible. try it, bet you would catch yourself by surprise. I dare ya" ( Betty.S)

So

Keep Trying.cause there aint no finish line :)

i do look better than ever which is great. i just want to take my diet more seriouesly and workout religiouesly. so i have relly realized being fit and in shape gives me great confidence that affects every area of my life. it makes me a happier person, confident, powerful, motivated, unstopable and prductive. So anyways im not going on any crash diet just wanna clean my diet up cut portions and workout regardless of my diet.